I do not know if you are in my life now or waiting to surprise me in the future, but I need you to know this now: I love you. If you need more information to figure me out look below… I am a very complicated person. I won’t lie to you. I can’t tell you where it all came from. The combination of past events with current outlook makes me out to be a very over analytical lesbian that wants nothing more than to love a person unconditionally. You should never question my feelings. I ask you for patience. I am stubborn and often not as good of a communicator as I once thought I was.I can talk your ear off with my feelings. Be nice, change the conversation in a gentle way. I want growth as much as the next person. I will love you all the more for it. I’m a planner and want things to go accordingly. Slow me down. Don’t let me rush things. My love will not change. I need you to take the lead with this one. I know I will not always like you. I will want to push you away and prevent any pain. Have the urge to scream and get my point across. Fight back. Stop me from leaving. Hold me until I cry and give into your arms. I can’t sleep when I am mad or upset. Talk to me. I need to work it out. Play in my hair and rub my back. You are going to mean the world to me. I will remember the outfit you wore on our first date. What we were doing when certain songs were playing that remind me of you and us. I will want to do anything and everything for you. I give my all once I fall. I will want to be the person you can come to when you have had a hard day, need to talk, want to joke, or need to be comforted with no words. Cry, laugh, pout or be blah. I won’t care. I will always be there. I am a hopeless romantic and you will be my outlet. Notes will be in surplus. Feelings may be minimal in the beginning, but can’t be stopped when I let go. Don’t laugh when my heart skips a beat, the times you catch me staring at you or biting my lip when I am stuck in thought about the night before. I will compare us to every love story that is made into a movie. Yes I am a dork and yes I am that much of a hopeless romantic . Only thing I want from you… Continue to be you. I love you already. Until you figure out I am the one for you or we meet…I shall be patient. Love, Me
When we first meet, and we exchange numbers; you’re going to have to text me first. And you’re also going to have to tell me you like me first, and you’re going to have to chase me and woo me and call me all the time and invite me to places. You’re going to have to ask me to be your girlfriend, and even though you’ve done all the work and it’s been a hard chase, after I say yes, I’m going to be all over you. You see, I don’t know how to do any of this, and I’m petrified of messing up and letting someone in, so I’m going to need you to be strong enough to get us started by yourself. But after that, you will be my princess and I will do anything for you. I will buy you tons of gifts and make you cd’s full of songs that I love and that remind me of you. I’ll write little cute letters to you, I’ll be the first to text you in the morning and the last one to text you at night. So don’t worry, I do like you, too. I just need you to understand how I work and how I am. I can’t wait until I say yes. Prepare yourself for some real serious loving.